What do you mean "waiting" ? I don't like to be kept in suspense. Please just tell me straight in the face, "it's you" or "it isn't" . And the feel of waiting for someone ain't that great too, i don't know why people just like to wait and make themself feel terrible. And I'm feeling terrible now, in school i face tons of tests that never seems to end. Don't see the "never ending" lunch breaks, just purely never ending tests. What's worse, i never seem to concentrate whenever i think about her, amazingly most of my lecture notes are scribbled with her name all over. Mistakenly written her name as mine on a worksheet. Ridiculous shit. Studying is really a whore. Whoever the bastard that invented studying should really re-evaluate himself and have his balls sucked. Why can't we all live on hunting and farming?

My mind is in a turmoil ! I'm smitten with someone i don't even know. It's really crazy. Crazayee thoughts ! Oh " D ", though i know you only through aquaintance, i really hope we'll get to know each other ! So Liz Chng, if you're reading this help me lahh ! D-D-D D-D-D-D-D-D!

I predict i'm gonna start a wrecked week tomorrow. I needa retake so many tests and catch up for the 3 days that i gave school a miss. But within that 3 days, i partayaeeed like crazy, of course leaving me broke too. Firstly, went to a club, went to stay over at a friend's, the best part, drove my dad's car. It ain't so difficult, i managed to drive straight, made a turn, then a U turn, then go up the car park. All done under Parental Guidance. So no worries ! I'll bet my last dollar that i'll ace my driving test. I've managed to get over the loneliness on the weekends thanks to my friends. Like air fill the lungs, friendship fills the heart. After giving school a miss for 3 days, i seriously begin to miss her more than usual.

She posts something about a guy. Argh, and i don't know who it is. But i have a strong feeling i've busted my chances. It's already hurting to see her post about guys, let alone letting me find out she likes someone else. The jealousy, the agony , etc etc. Maybe i should pop the question as soon as possible and get over with it. Killing me softly with her posts. I fancy you girl !

I'm sick, and mum's being inhuman by forcing me to school. Had a war with her before i returned to bed Victorious ! Meaning i won the war, so i need not go school. Seems like she's still treating me like a primary school kid, i feel so sad. She is unfeeling ! When will she change ? Since i didn't attend school for 2 days, i suppose i missed quite alot. Hmm, HECK CARE ! LaLaLa. I've had enough of school. Poly life ain't that easy as i thought it would be. 4 tests per week ! How's that? Stressful. I'll be missing you.

Big thank you to Asiq ! His house has been a hotel for me and melvin, we've been staying there for nights. Reallyyy fun. And clarence, go wash your dog and suck it's balls. Dog more important than me? Cheee byeee. Joking lahh, i know the difficulties you have, how strict your dog controls you. Seems like you're the pet of your dog. Hahs. School is Stressful, many many many tests coming up. Grrf, hate it. But i gotta take it in my stride, if not i'll go mentally unsound. Have you ever wondered what you should write when you come across an exam question and not knowing how to answer it?

Okay, try this expansion question

Funnaye eh? See this.

My my, what can students do nowadays. Anyway, I miss you !

I'm hungry, poof, it sucks to be hungry. Yesterday was the Punggol Secondary Concert, i believed what everyone enjoyed was the reunion with all the old friends and teachers. The concert was alright, but the best thing was the " Fashion" show, some "model" wore three-quarter pants with a shirt tucked in, pulled his pants high enough to cover his belly button. Gosh, i swore everyone laughed till their jaws dropped ! Some "model" , yeah right ! Had some really good singing performances and all, overall, i enjoyed myself enough to stay over at Asiq's place after the concert. Had a sudden Latin fetish, so we guitared a latin song and asiq really sang like some mexican or spanish old man. Had a great laugh. By 1am or 2, Melvin, Asiq and I were hungryaeee. We cooked some fried rice, ain't that bad. By 4 or 3am,we went to the void deck for another fashion show. This time we being the models, 3 of us tucked in our damn shirts and pulled our pants so high that it almost reach our nipples ! Unbelievable? Believe it, we looked like retards, or rather we were. We started singing in our retarded outfit, did retarded actions and laughed so hard. Hmm, perhaps we can invite you all over for our next fashion show.
I'm missing you girl.

It's hurting. God, take away the feelings i have for her pleaseeee, it's not that i no longer like her, i like her loads ! It's just that i can't keep this going on anymore. All i ask is to be great best friends with her. It's really hard to contain your feelings for someone espcially when you're practically out with them everyday. Get your mood all spoilt for the day when they don't talk to you, feel the slightest jealousy when they casually talk about other guys, dying to grab their attention. Etc etc. I'm sure many of you have the same sentiments. Oh well, let's just move on, nothing much i can do, i leave it all up to you GOD ! Be it a positive or negative, i gladly accept it. Just make sure we still remain as close friends. There's this cute korean guy in my class, i swear he's really cute, speaks cutely, jokes around and gives free Vulgar korean language classes ! Oh my Kim Soo Huan, you're really funnaye. There's this sms my long time no see friend sent me around 12am last night, waking me up from my sweet sleep. But after reading it, i felt that it was real meaningful.

Here goes : As we grow up in life, we learned that even the 1 person that wasn't suppose to let us down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder to accept it each time. You'll break hearts too, and everytime you do, please remember how you felt when someone broke yours. You might fight with your bestie or any friend and probably never talk again, but life is all about forgiving and forgetting. You'll cry because time is passing too fast and you'll eventually lose someone, someone close to you. So laugh, love and treasure others like you've never been hurt because every 60 seconds you spend being angry, annoyed or upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

Meaningful ? At least it was to me ! So i'm sorry to everybody for whatever i've done wrong, Massive appology ! Argh, i dreamt of someone last night, but i seriously cannot remember who it was, i swear it must have been some horrid person, the moment i woke up from the dream, i rushed to the toilet to "lao sai" Gosh, it was really bad. That person i dreamt of must be so horrid. Who could it be? Jolt my memory ! Dammit ! If i ever remember who that person was, i'll recomend him/her to people who have serious constipation. He/her is gonna be a great remedy for constipated people ! I'm gonna earn billions. Still missing you girl.

School's becoming tiring, can't stand any much longer. Can't pay attention in class or whatsoever, i only enjoy the bus rides to school. They are fun, other than the bus ride, hell no. Heaven help me ! I seriously need some help in expressing myself, i can't fight this feeling any longer. Sweet smile she has :) Susan Tanggggg ! If you see this warning, please gimme a date to clear the ice cream in my fridge. My family members are like wolves dying to clear it, i have a hard time fighting them off, protecting our ice cream ! So let's eat it quickly ! Oh peeps, i have something to ask you guys. An advertisement states validity of promotion from April 07 - March 08. Has it expired? Please tell me when you see me, because there are really silly people like me who can't READ dates properly. Dissapointment ain't it? Oh, i'm not the only one, there's another silly out there. You should know who you areee ! I really really really really miss you girl.

All at once I'm drifting on a lonely sea
Wishing you'd come back to me
And that's all that matters now
All at once I'm drifting on a lonely sea
Holding on to memories
And it hurts me more than you know
So much more than it shows

Yipee doodle ! I'm forgiven. Had much fun since morning till dawn today, the bus ride to school, the ride home, slacking with clarence and all ! For REAL ! It's really been a long time since i enjoyed myself like this. That's why FRIENDS rank first ! Caught up with a really really old friend, made a new friend whom has a soft toy name. Funnyae eh? And SUSAN, your Tau Hui was really sweeet, swore i could have gone to the hospital if i had taken another bowl ! Just kidding, but it really was sweet, or rather i'm sweeeeeet ! And peeps, do you realise the weather's rather hot nowadays? It's because i'm HOT ! How's that ! Hottie ! It ain't working out the way i wanted it to be, but i'm happy this way. Defitnely happier if it goes my way, but either way, Thanks. Girl you make my dayyyy ~! I really really really miss you.

I can't fight this feeling any longer. And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow. What started out as friendship, has grown stronger. I only wish i had the strength to let it show.
Cause i can't fight this feeling anymore. I've forgotten what i started fighting for. And if i have to crawl upon the floor. Come crashing through your door. Baby, i can't fight this feeling anymore

You seemed upset on friday, i don't know if i had made you upset. In any words i'm sorry girl. EEYORE !! Sorrrry !! I really really miss you girl.

I take back my words on girls being unpredictable, no doubt they are, but looking on the other hand, it's counted as "attitude" that makes a girl fun. But i've seen something worse today at Compass Point, guys. Grr, my blood boils when i saw my good friend's ex boyfriend with another girl. It's not wrong, but i felt wierd when i saw them together, i felt that the guy's a jerk. That guy's a doofus, he gave up my good friend who's a hottie. Not only hot but nice too, even i have a liking over her. I don't understand, is it so hard to find a life partner? God damn it, stop avoiding me girl, one moment you're so close and one moment you shun me. I don't know what you want and i don't know what to do.I really wish you know who you are. I really miss you.

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life Cause that's when I love you When nothing you do can change my mind The more I learn the more I love The more my heart can't get enough That's when I love you When I love you No matter what

Girls are unpredictable creatures. Seriously.

One word to describe my day, FUN ! Had lots of it from the starting of the day till night. Having your own pad is cool man, nobody to control you or whatsoever. COOL . I call Susan Fann Wong, for the little resemblence she has with her, Kelvin heard and named himself Andy Lau. Suck Ass Kelvin !! Andy Lau my ass. Suckkeerrrr. Dinned with a new friend i made barely for a day, craps of coolness. And life is really coincidental, i met a little girl at some random void deck and made friends with her. Ended up her mum was my ex principal, HOLY COW. How's that? Then i acted along saying i knew her mum, i was an ex teacher from Rosyth...blah blah blah. She actually believed ! Cute little girl. Thanks for the superb day "Summer"

Gosh, it's been a traumatic and hectic week. Just 2 days and i felt like this !!! ARGH. I wanna strike the god damn lottery and live my life in serenity ! Build a Giant castle in pula ubin and air condition the place, bring girls over and partayyy all night long. Speaking about girls, i'm lacking of love and that sucks ! Cheee byeee. No love no mood to study. Mum please arrange a matchmaking session for me pleassee. I need loveee ! Love can be extended to people around you, not only your boyfriend or girlfriend. So i LOVE you all everybody. It's been great having all of you in my life. I miss you girl

This song is for peeps like me who've got no love or are feeling low.

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you're away from love and you're alone
If you call your friends and nobody's home You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night Then I show you there's a destiny The best things in life They're free

Chorus: But if you wanna cry Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder Yes I show you what real love can do
If your sky is grey oh let me know There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue When the days are getting hard for you I will always stay here by your side I promise you I'll never hide

Repeat chorus:

What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do